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"... you only find what your looking for "

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"i know..."
    as self-mutilation
    as torture
    as two possibilities, this or that
    as fear [of the unknown]
    as "the box"
    as "fuck YOU"
    as "i don't [want to] know [where to begin]"
    as slavery to imaginary captors
    as blasphemy of ideal
    as bigotry
    as old-fashioned
    as too proud too fast

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how does it...
how can it...

(( repeating myself? ))

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wonder-about
   as opposed to
believe-in

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conviction
(as public enemy no. 1)

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almost went there once, but then didn't

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